i can’t believe you have been here for three whole months! the best three months ever, that’s for sure. this past month has been exciting.. you have learned and grown so much. it pains me a little to tell you that you have grown out of that newborn stage.. and now you are a full-blown baby. my baby. my favorite little man.
this past month started with a checkup.. you are in the 25th percentile, which means you are a pretty little guy. it’s no surprise, since your daddy and i aren’t exactly giants. you had to get some shots and it was probably more sad for me than it was for you. you hardly winced at them… but later that night you were mad at the world. i bet those shots made your little legs sore. i shouldn’t say little legs.. those things are getting pretty portly. we are thinking of gobbling them up. better watch out. actually, those cute, chunky thighs are the reason we had to move you up to size one diapers. no more newborn diapers for you. we have also had to retire lots of your cute, teeny clothes.. it’s sad every single time.
you have SO many faces, ranging from happy to sad to mad to glad. i love them all. your smile makes my heart burst.. and you have even squeaked out a few giggles! you have these adorable dimples in your chubby cheeks and they are basically amazing. while you are super smily, you have proven to be a little cranky and whiny at times. your sad faces are still pretty cute, though. even when you are in full-on meltdown mode, your beet-red bawling face brings me so much love. and so many tears, too. when you are sad, it makes me cry. i have never been so emotional in all my life.
you have the prettiest eyes, we think they will be blue. it’s tough to say this early on, though. your eyebrows are still expressive as ever.. but they always make people comment that you look worried. i like to think you are just in deep though and are very concerned with the world around you. there is so much for you to discover!
this month has been full of lots of wondering–probably for you, and for sure for me and your daddy. just when we thought you were into a groove, you changed! that’s what they say, though, so i guess we should have known. every day is a mystery to us. we do a lot of worrying. some days you are real happy all day, and other days you cry, cry, cry. we try not to freak out too much on those sad days.. but it is hard not to worry and wonder if something serious is wrong.
it seems like our biggest concern is your sleep habits. you don’t love naps as much as you used to, so we have had to focus more on making sure you get enough sleep during the day so you can then sleep well at night. at the beginning of the month you were 7 to 8 hours at night, and then you suddenly decided that wasn’t a great idea anymore, and you started waking up once or twice in the night to eat. it all started with the time change, which i expected, but you never went back to your sleepy self. we had a rocky patch of lots of crying and waking in the night, and a few of those nights you were up more than five times. it was tough. but i think that is starting to pass. right now you are waking up once around 2 or 3 to eat, and then again around 5 or 6. on work days you will stay up after that, but on weekends you usually will go back to bed (thank you, mister.)
you just barely started sleeping in your own room. it took us a long time to make that decision, but i guess we needed to move you in there sooner or later, right? you have been in there two nights so far. the first night i was a little bit too worried and set up not one, but two baby monitors. i turned the volume way up to make sure i would hear you if you cried. guess what? i didn’t need the monitors. you’ve got a healthy set of lungs. :) you wake up quite a bit, but after a little bit of soothing, rocking, and binky action.. you eventually fall back to sleep. hopefully you get better and better at sleeping at night time. right now you are still in your rock’n’play, but we are going to try to move you to the crib… one of these days. one thing at a time.
you are still a big fan of your bedtime routine! we start that around 8:30 every night, but sometimes you are a little cranky, so we will move it earlier. you love bathtime (but hate it when we try to clean your neck rolls!) and you especially love when we shower you off with the faucet. you love water on your face and especially over your hair. you also love getting cozy cozy in your warm towel afterward–we still microwave it for you and i have a feeling we will be doing that for years and years to come.
you have started to hold your head up so high and look around all over the place during tummy time. such a strong neck! we are proud of you, fox man. speaking of your neck, you have this tendency to look left. it’s your favorite direction to look. we have had to make you look right more often so both sides of your neck can get strong. at first you really hated looking right, but you have gotten lots better with practice.
you have become a little picky when it comes to eating. daddy gives you bottles on monday when you stay home with him, and that makes you spoiled and putting in the work to nurse isn’t your idea of a good time. earlier this month you went on a nursing strike for three days and it was real hard on me. i am sure it was hard on you, too. i am glad we got through that rough patch! sometimes after you have bottles, i have to trick you with a nipple shield.. but for the most part you have gotten past putting up a fight when it’s time to eat. actually, one of my favorite things is your “excited to eat” face.. you do this little head banging move and get a big grin… oh, man. it’s so cute, bud.
you started going to the gym with me sometimes, and you actually love it there! i think you really like to be out and about. you kick your legs to the music at the gym and are all smiles. you are always happier when there is music playing. you must get that from your daddy. my two music men. you love it when i sing to you. i think you are the only one in this world that appreciates my excellent singing voice. i love to make up silly songs, and i like to think you love them just as much as i do.
oh! let’s talk about your HANDS. you LOVE YOUR HANDS. they are the most amazing things on your planet and it’s pretty clear that if we don’t let you have access to your hands, life cannot go on. we have stopped swaddling your arms when you sleep, simply because you want to suck on your sweet little hands. sometimes you get frustrated because you can’t quite figure out how to get both hands in your mouth at the same time. silly man. you have also discovered how to grasp things. you like to grab on to your favorite toy bird’s legs when you are in your bouncer. and just today you grasped onto my finger during your nap, and we held hands the entire time. it was my favorite part of today. please hold my hand for ever and always.
oh, fox, you make life worth living. i am so excited for another month of adventures. you are the very best, my baby boy.
love, your momma